Spoonful of Stacey - Johny and Stacey a Glimpse into our Story
Bowlful of Johny Rey - Everyone has a Story Person
As we know if 20 people go to a movie and are asked their experience it's highly likely you'll receive 20 different responses. We all have layers of conditioning and imprinted learned information. We all give words or experiences our own definition based off of our individual stories. For example raising your middle finger to someone. We have been conditioned to believe that means "fuck off" "fuck you" "You're driving like an asshole". The point, we have been conditioned to believe that is the definition. Not just a finger, or the number 1. We as the receiver can chose to give any word or experience the definition we choose. As we've accumulated our individual life experiences the memories stored, suppressed, hidden within our cells, when one experiences movies, conversations, hears stories etc. there are tiny eruptions of stored learned information triggering at all times effecting our definition of what we are experiencing. This being just a simple way to explain how we've been conditioned by our social surroundings.
So here is my story and shared below is a peek into where Johny Rey comes from and the opportunity to get to know his version of our story that lead up to him moving to Canada. He changed his whole life not just to be with me but to follow his soul's purpose to heal and enlighten others through his journey of self love and discovery.
When Johny and I decided he would make the move from LA there was no way I could expect or assume how the adjustment would be. And to be honest with trust in our higher power and guides urging us to do so I still had my egoic doubts and a "prove it" attitude towards Johny, the relationship, and the move. I had several forms of validation from close spiritual beings, my own guides, and well known mediums. But I'm still human and the ego has been trained for years only knowing fear, fear of the unknown, fear of pain, fear of loss etc. I was at a place of contentment after months of feeling disconnected from leaving Canada, taking trainings, searching to fill a void that only a relationship with my higher self could fill. Moving forward with my business and on the next level of my journey of self discovery and essentially comfortable with the life I had created for myself. I was hesitant to welcoming anything in that would again shake my shit up. As I know my actions in previous relationship I lose myself; put my dreams on the back burner, conform to please their ideal of a girlfriend, stop speaking my truth in fear of losing them, and make my other my priority.
Our relationship leading up to this move could easily be called unconventional. We originally met when he was visiting his mom in Williston, ND. I went to train him for his Level I & II Reiki Certification. At this point we had FaceTimed, phonecalls, texted for about a month and what had started as a cool connection intrigued me. Triggered by his openness to spirituality, interest to learn more, crazy parallels between our lives, ambition within his passion, hearing his mom was also a healer, and let's be honest he was a complete babe; his style, music taste, fluent in Spanish, and love for fashion got me like woooo, who the fuck is this guy. I would create him if I could, little to either of our knowledge, we created each other but I'll save that story for another blog. If you know me I would say my type would be Jesus on wheels. As I creeped his Facebook profile I saw him sitting on his skateboard, dressed to impress, long brown curly hair, and Colombian kissed tattooed skin, did I stand a chance? Lol
I was in the middle of a huge shift in my life having just returned to Canada after selling all my belongings in my attempt to take control of my life after burning myself out, running my system ragged all with the best intentions of simply wanting to help, teach, heal as many souls as I could. I was set out to fill a void that had been created from not allowing myself balance, a time to receive, stuck once again in the social conditioning; people pleasing, putting others first, and not listening to my higher self. I was trying to get back on track. Having spent the last two years leading up to our meeting reversing my failing health and on my journey of self discovery. And since moving home from Calgary to seek medical attention and to flee my physical, emotional abusive relationship in 2013 I was at first fighting to live and then dove head first into a the new lifestyle my failing health led me too, having no time or interest in a relationship. I wasn't just going to let anyone in, they had to be special and everything in my mind, body, and soul was urging me to explore this person further.
Our meeting was even puppeteer'd by the universe, his flight back to LA being cancelled for no reason to extend his time in ND as he was to leave the day I returned to Canada once again from the retreat I hosted in Nicaragua. I planned to go there for a few days to train him and we were both interested in seeing what this over the phone connection would be like in person. Our meeting was nothing less then magical, he kissed me right away and normally I'd be like who the fuck do you think you are going near my sacred lips. But I wanted more. The second kiss ignited a kaleidoscope of colors spiraling through my mind's eye so intensely I shoved him away and yelped, "Whoa, kaleidoscope". He looked at me strangely and asked is that slang for something? Haha I went on to explain surely thinking to myself, "this guys going to think I'm nuts." I extended my stay and over the week as I taught him reiki, yoga, received long overdue cuddles, and up all night conversations. The attraction and level of comfort were unreal. I had amazing interactions and conversations with his mom who I instantly fell in love with and was even called out by his auntie. Once meeting her before she left she looked at me, and I mean stared right into my soul pierced my eyes looked at me. She gave me a hug goodbye and stated. "I know I'll see you again". I giggled it off thinking this boy lives in LA, I'm from Canada, but apart of me wanted to believe her. After she left I went on to tell Johny of the look she gave me once again thinking, oh man this boy's gotta think I'm nuts and within 15 minutes of sharing my experience he had received a text from her. Johny having been about a month out of a three year on/off relationship she stated, "See they come and they go, and then you meet one like her." Johny replied, "Oh, so you liked her." With a reply back, "What's not to like when you look into the eyes of an angel". Of course I gleamed at that response when he shared it with me. Our week of energy healing, cuddles, and conversations came to end and I set back to Canada and him to LA. Left with the feeling of what the fuck just happened!?! Lol
I called up my mentor at the time who is a medium to explore this connection further. He reminded me of the boy with big white teeth, curly thick hair, foreign in culture he had told about when I called him back in December when things started to turn shit during my move to Nicaragua. I had forgot all about it caught up in my perceived "failed attempt" to help my friend, travel the world, and balance out of my life. He went on to explain how most of the time he's explaining why relationships should be left, or avoided but in this special rare connection we were meant to be. A happily ever after, a twin flame connection. A soul split in two finally returning home to one another to grow with, transition with, learn from, and unconditionally love on another. We met to shake shit up in one another's life, to ascend us to our next level on our journey and soul's purpose. I felt that need to explain this to Johny, thinking holy fuck, now this dudes really going to think I've lost it but with a huge urge to do so I called him up in LA and explained. He rightfully so asked to speak to this medium to gain reassurance of this far out story. He felt me, he was with me for a week and experienced our connection and synchronicity but having had some manipulating relationships with females in the past and freshly single his guard went up. Him and his mom who was also enduring a shift in her life as well having put healing on the back burner after a situation with her father both received readings from this medium. After being wowed by the information he knew about them each individually we went on to essentially live our lives. Yes, we heard and to some extent believed but I was happy to put focus on reestablishing my company in Canada and reconnecting with my Higher self. As he sought out to conquer LA, build his skate company, and live up life as a newly single man.
We never set out boundaries, titles, expectations as we met during periods of our life where a relationship was the last thing either of us expected or wanted to come into our reality. I was living the single life for two years, reversing my failing health, awakening to my truth, creating my business, and married to myself. Johny, fresh out of a three year relationship, newly entering the flashy life LA could offer him, and prioritizing a dream of becoming a pro skater while building and branding his company BLNT. Myself having been on my own spiritual journey of awakening to conscious living; more aware, open, and trusting in the divine order, soul's purpose, and the crazy synchronized events attempting to show us the truly powerful connection the two of us encompassed, wanted to hold space for Johny and allow him to go through what he felt he needed completely content in focusing on myself at first.
As time went on we learned more about who we were as individuals, as twin flames, and our part in a larger mission to raise the collective consciousness of the human race. With him in LA doing god knows what and god knows who and my old patterns, and emotional traumas from previous relationships rising to the surface this started to become challenging for me. I knew in my heart this person and I had the potential to be together but wasn't feeling some of his actions. I wanted a conscious man who understood life on a deeper level, was self aware/mindful, who had a desire to dive into their darkness and release what no longer served them. I questioned if Johny was this guy. As he feed his egoic side in LA, his actions truly not in alignment with my integrity. I saw him living two lives. The Johny I would experience warm, open, intelligent, intuitive, then the Johny he was showing to the world consumed by the achievement of being noticed, recognized by the show, and ignoring his connection to his spiritual self. I allowed the space he needed to grow with hope he would come to see and feel the potential we had.
A few months ago we were being strongly and I mean getting yelled at by our guides through our dear friend who is a living portal for spirits to speak through on the physical plane that his move to Canada needed to happen for the highest good of all involved in this mission. We had decided he would come visit for a few weeks for both of us to feel out if this was going to be the next step on our journey. Guides or not we humans have free will and everything is our choice to make. We could walk away from this but Johny was told it would get messy and chaotic for him. As he was going about life in LA without the assistance of his guides as his lifestyle was for complete personal gain and he was ignoring the urge of his soul to live out his Lightworkers destiny. I on the other hand receiving validation from our guides that I was on my path, connected to my higher self, and fulfilling my purpose. Did apart of me hope, wish, dream for Johny to be with me, yes. I'd be lying if I didn't admit that but I didn't want him coming here disconnected. I knew we wouldn't vibe if so and wanted the decision to be his and not feel forced.
He had yet to book his ticket and was being in my opinion distant, unsupportive and still feeding his egoic mind even after hearing this information. In my eyes this wasn't the person I wanted to welcome into my heart, my space, and my journey with it being a month away from the time he was meant to "move in" his actions, and lack their of totally turned me off. After eight months of holding space, suppressing feelings/not speaking my truth, receiving validation that I was on my true path and that twin flame or not he had his free will and was abusing it, I was fed up. I mustered up the courage to call him out explaining I had come to some realizations. I explained how I got caught up in our twin flame connection and our soul's purpose. How I put helping him open up on the front burner and my own wants and needs on the back burner. That I did not want him to move here and at the point did not want him to visit either. I was calm but did not hold anything back. I explained how the way he was showing himself to the world did not resonate with me but also that I had unconditional love for him (which I truly did, I only ever want for anyone to simply be happy). And if this lifestyle was making him happy great live it, but that I needed to take a step back and pull my focus on myself and my individual journey. That essentially I was done trying to get him to open up to the intense knowledge and insight we were both receiving from our guides.
Little to my knowledge he had recently gone through some holy shit moments that one could not chalk up to being coincidence (I will leave his story for him to share). Along with my complete shift of energy towards him resulted in lighting a fire to his social conditionings and shed light on the egoic lifestyle he was living while he fed his disconnected self in LA. Don't get me wrong I had a lot of compassion as he was being asked to change his whole life and surrender his dream of skating pro. But reminded him that I had gone through similar as well that through experiencing loss of what no longer serves allows space for one to live in their truth. Both our social conditionings playing their role in installing fear of the unknown. We were being told, guided by spiritual beings to make this shift at times thinking we were going crazy and being called that by others, doubted, judged. We had to stop not believing and after experiencing such magic in our lives both together and apart we deep down knew all we could and needed to do was trust. I arriving at a place of contentment with whatever happens, happens agreed to allowing him to visit so that we could see if our energies would click just as they had during our initial meeting. We had spent sometime together after the initial meeting when I visited him in LA on my way back and forth to Mexico for training's and it was not enjoyable. His energy was so low and he quite frankly made me sick. Thinking to myself where the fuck was the Johny Rey I initially met in ND, he was lost. Little to my knowledge as he was practiced in telling a female exactly what they would like to hear and not his truth, he was trying everything in his power not to like me, as this was an inconvenient time for such a connection as his ego enjoyed the flashy look at me lifestyle in LA. I being a complete mirror for everything he was trying to suppress, his spiritual side, in order to do so. We both wanted to test the waters.
The visit was nothing less than amazing. With the day's flowing fluidly, the warm family visits, and feeling of home when we were together. There was no way Johny had stated that he could walk away from this now and continue his life in LA. I felt the shift in him but still carried a "prove it" attitude. My attempt to protect my myself, closing off my heart. I not fully aware of the suppressed emotions I had built up over the first eight months of knowing each other. In my conscious mind I was just be trusting of the process and holding space for him. But actually what I was doing was blocking my voice, not allowing myself to feel the emotions triggered by our unconventional relationship (as I chalked them up to being reactions of my egoic mind), and contributed to resenting him. Hence the "prove it" attitude. For truly he had nothing to prove, if I trusted in my higher self and everything to happen in divine order what ever was to come of our moving in and what happened prior was exactly what was needed.
Allowing a whole other being into my space has had its challenges. As I struggle to maintain balance within my life, a constant practice for most. Making my self care a priority and remembering to put myself first, as I've learned my cup must be full in order to help others. As well as establishing our roles in our business, maintaining our individual businesses, creating daily routines for ourselves, taking alone time, continuing to honor our unique desires/pleasures, working through our blocks within the relationship triggered by the last eight months, previous relationship blocks, getting to know each other, falling in love and practicing a conscious interdependent relationship. Everyday I wake up and look over I'm grateful for having him here, for the growth our special connection has brought, and for our likeminded mission to inspire others to live consciously as well. As we continue to find balance in our new journey together we spent the morning doing our self care to honor our Mother and Father nurturing energies, then honored our inner children exploring the rocks and caves in Roche Percee, expressing our creative sides as we snapped pictures/videos, followed by a mini retreat we hosted "Journey into Meditation and Yin Yoga" at or home business fulfilling our Matriarch and Patriarch teacher/mentor energies.
We have chosen to share our journey, our stories, our lessons as we have been divinely guided to do so in hopes to inspire others that through conscious living, awareness, acceptance, trust in a connection to self, one can create the life they have always dreamt of and attract their soul family. That it's not always going to be sunshine and rainbows, or how we think or want it to be, but it will be exactly what's needed.
September 19 at 3:30pm ·
So as some of you might have heard I recently completely changed my life around. It was a surprise to almost everyone because exteriorly it seemed I was where I had always wanted to be, skating in LA, living on Hollywood blvd, whipping around on a motorcycle, building my company, surrounded by loyal friends and loved ones, doing extra work on movie sets, making a nice living with a fun job (insert more exterior fulfilling endeavors). To most people they would think I was crazy to leave, in fact I'm sure a ton of people still do. I left without explaining much except to the closest of friends and I'm finally at a place where I feel an explanation is due. This was now the fourth time in my life where I had completely ignored the soul and followed my ego driven dreams/conditioning and made it to a place where everything BUT my spiritual side was completely satisfied.
First was Miami where through HARD physical work I managed to have a place on the beach, two cars, a girlfriend and a dog. Trying my hardest to fulfill what I was told would make me happy (finance, material stuff, a pretty girl and lastly I tried to fill the void with a dog), yet I was still unhappy. At this point I figured it was because I wasn't skating enough so we wrapped our life up and restarted in Tampa.
Once in Tampa conditioning took it's course. Although I was starting to get that money it wasn't everything, so skating was prioritized. I began working towards my passion. Skate park of Tampa being down the street made that pro-life very lucrative. At this point I had left all my sponsors from Miami and was convinced I would find the right company that would get me and that I could relate to. To my surprise none did, even the great start up dream that was SPOT just looked at me as a dollar sign. Confused and disappointed by the industry I set out to start my own company. A company that stood for the skater, the dream, and less on the money and feeding the trendy industry bs.
I created my own company and BLNT was born (Become Legend Not Trend). As happy and commited as I was to feeding the company and what it needed to grow, I still had all the responsibilities of what I now call sheeple; working day in and day out, partying every weekend, going through the motions of an unenlightened relationship and unable to voice those feelings because almost NOBODY understood.
I give huge credit to my mom. She has always been there for me. She was always that one person who understood the soul's cries for help (she became an energy healer while I was in high-school). She always had the best advice and since day one would push me to connect to myself. (I admit I had no idea what that meant... Myself? I was convinced success in what my passion is has to be what myself wants.... No?) Well sure enough that's exactly what I defined it to be.
Within a year after starting BLNT I began using the 'Law of Attraction' and visualization to live out what I believed to be "myself's" true fulfillment (going on tours, only having to skate, sharing my passion with the world). Within 3 weeks of daily visualizations and focus I met an awesome friend who ended up being the exact thing I attracted. As I was seeking a way to live life skating on tour and through my visualizations and law of attraction the universe brought me this individual. He had connections and the ability to provide me the opportunity to live out this lifestyle. Within a couple months of filming I once again changed my whole life leaving everything behind to follow "myself's" dream. Touring across the U.S. was one of the best of my life's experiences, don't get me wrong especially doing something I love, but once again something was missing. A disconnection that not only I felt but my great friend felt too. A feeling that lead us to not trust the divine connection to source. At times the mentality was as if we were waiting to get screwed over by companies/individuals, not realizing because of the law of attraction that's exactly what was being brought into our reality. So our tour was brought to a halt. (Law of attraction knows no boundaries; whether what you are focusing on is perceived by you as "good" or "bad", it will still come to be if that is where your energy is going).
Confused like never before, I was forced to start my life over AGAIN this time on my mom's couch at age 25. Fortunately, by being so close to her and having so much free time on my hands, I began to learn how to meditate and started taking my quest inward. Asking questions and learning about astral projections, mediums and a tiny bit about the soul. By a medium at a metaphysical temple, I was given strict advice as to what to do to grow my spiritual side and a tiny glimpse as to what my soul's purpose was. Which of course I completely ignored responding from my egoic mind and social conditioning. Using my previously learned method of manifestation, the law of attraction, I was blessed by a previous shop sponsor with my own Skateshop. A new more self aware adventure took place at Ambition Skateshop minutes away from Clearwater beach. I was truly blessed with not only a shop but a giant Woodward style skatepark to do as I pleased. Best part about it was the summer camp. At one point I had a class of 32 amazing kids that I got to teach and learn SO much from. There is no love like that from a child, they are still so connected to their rawest self and are capable of TRULY believing ANYTHING you tell them. When I became aware of this, I had taught them how to heal themselves and each-other effortlessly. I learned this healing, the basics from my mother, but mostly pure intuition. I still to this day get messages from some of the children I taught. ❤️
As amazing as it was after a year of it I felt caged by the shop and my personal life situation. I was in a hiatus and the more I wanted out the more life managed to create a perfect exit route for me (law of attraction or divine order? Who knows) I knew I needed a BIG change, something away from it all. I did what I always wanted to do and went to my motherland (COLOMBIA) on a month skate tour. This is where I was born and raised till the age of seven. Funny thing is, I had no idea what I was going to come back to once the trip ended. I no longer had a place to live in FL and the moms had moved on her own journey to the middle of nowhere, Williston, ND.
Trusting life and it's manifesting powers I decided to just leave regardless. I met my dad for the second time (I had not seen him since I was 7 years old). Somehow by the second day I was skating around with a giant entourage roughly 15 -20 homies taking road trips around Colombia reconnecting to that little kid in me that just wanted to travel and skate. A huge lesson for me, seeing how hard life was for the majority of people there and TRULY feeling how lucky and blessed I was to not only have made it out but also having created a life around my passion. They looked at me like we look at celebrities in the states but a little less hopeful... like something they would never be able to reach. That made me sad, so I made it a point to talk personally to as many of them as possible in hopes of helping them break the barriers that had conditioned them to think that way. I'm not going to say the ego didn't love every minute of it, but you bet your ass I did everything in my power to smack it in the face by taking myself off that non-existing pedestal as much as possible. We all have egos, it's how we react to them that makes the difference. I was very humbled by the experience and once arriving in North Dakota I was overly determined to live out my dream. My thoughts exactly, "If I have such blessings to not be conditioned that way and to live in a place where you really have a chance to succeed, I am going to do everything in my power to make it as big as I possibly can".
Once again defining success from material gain, I linked up with my mom in ND where an oil boom had struck and money was a flowing. Minimum wage was at 25$ an hour and I worked my ass off to save as much as possible in order to move to Cali and live the American Dream. Once again flooded by outer perceptions and forgetting about the inner-self.... Hard headed aren't we? �
Sure enough I made the cash, flew to LA, and set out to create a life that I thought I wanted and had not yet experienced. Within the first couple of months everything came together "perfectly". An array of talented individuals, situations, and tools were at my palms to help me make my company as big as I desired. With everything being set and money being no issue it made no sense to anyone as to why I would pack my bags and leave.
Here is the long story shortened of what happened....
As I'm leaving ND and taking my life with me to LA I took a couple trips back and fourth. On my last trip I ended up meeting someone who truly helped me change my life. Her name is Stacey. I know what your thinking but you are wrong. This wasn't based on the fairytale love at first sight as some might put it, I've actually never fought off anyone as hard as I tried to fight the essence of her existence. (You have to understand at this point my life is going PERFECT... Or so I thought) the LAST thing I wanted (I even said these exact words to her) "the last thing I want is to get into any type of relationship" I'm was for the first time in a LONG time a free man (having just ended a three year relationship) and I'm enjoying every minute of it. She felt very similar in her life. She was also going through some shifts, rebuilding her company and had no interest in being tied down. In fact, she didn't even live in the same country as I. She lived ....well you guessed it in Canada haha. Our first encounter was magical. She had originally came to ND on one of my visits to help my mom with her company to train me for my Reiki Level I & II Certification. There was something completely out of the ordinary about the way our energies felt around each other. The synchronicites within our lives were freaking us out. The first holy shit moment being the tattoo on her left hip of the EXACT same white dove that is my mom's company logo. Seeing as how the instant her and my mom met they became inseparable. Remember, my mom is a healer and she had lost her way as well for a while. The second they met my mom had a sparkle in her eye that I hadn't seen since high school when she first became a holistic healer. The synchronicities go on and on, maybe I'll indulge more on it another time. Point being, shit got weird and my ego wanted nothing to do with it. (This was no time for me to get involved with anything or anyone other than my skating, my company and my worldly success.... right?)
Sure enough I flew back back to Cali Cali to keep living my bad ass life placing that "out of this world " scenario in the past (although the tiny part of me that was still connected to my soul managed to keep a connection with her every once in a while, whether a text or message here and there (thanks soul).
Couple weeks later I get a phone call, Stacey in a shy like voice "Hey.... there's something I kinda feel like you would want to know". "Oh man"... was my initial thought lol. She went on to explain to me that one of her good friends is a well trusted medium and that she had a heavy conversation with him. He apparently knew all about me even before she told him who I was. As he went on to explain to her that we are 'Twin Flames' and that my soul had been visiting him for a while and my soul explained to him what was happening. I knew about mediums but man did my ego want to call the BS card on that. Nothing against her, it's just that how could my ego be ok with something that heavy happening now!? Out of all times in my life this is when you come as I FINALLY see the "light" at the end of the tunnel where my worldly success is getting closer by the day!? "Well that's pretty intense I replied ..... Can I speak to this medium, cuz I need to hear this for myself." Not completely shutting down the idea... I mean I was there and felt and saw all the signs but I had to know for sure if I was even going to entertain the idea. (What a shit head I had become �) We love to call out other people's shit but man oh man can we not smell our own -someone smart.
That call was in-fucking-sane. Dude knew shit about me that I didn't even (consciously) know. He knew about my inner most fears, everything about my company, family, and he even told me exactly what my skateboard looked like that I had just set up that day. He explained to me who Stacey and I were to each-other and why my mom and I were so close. He strongly guided me to change my life and to pursue my soul's purpose.....
My response, "I mean all that makes sense just not right now" and I ran with it, my ego was not budging and for EIGHT months I chose the blue pill stayed in the matrix and lived it UP. Partying in mansions in the hills, smoking tons of green, womanizing you name it. I was doing everything I could to cram in that sleepy, unawakened mind-set knowing deep inside it was going to come to an end sooner than later. I don't regret it because I know "right" or not that was my biggest dream at one point. I knew it was completely EGO based but like it or not the ego is a part of us and I honored that. Especially knowing that I swore to myself that once I set my mind up to follow my soul my ego would be in check at all time. His last outing I call it.
Being consciously oblivious things started to get heavy in Canada as all others who are part of my mission were having to go through the preparations without me. I became the weak link and although I didn't see myself as being needed by them I understood that a table without a leg still stands but not as strong. In the final attempt by my guides and soul they had an emergency medium session this time through one of our team members who is what they call a living portal, meaning she can actually let higher vibrational beings (such as guides or even passed loved ones) use her body to communicate to us on the "physical realm" and had her record the session where all my guides called me out and in a sense ripped me a new one for what they called "abusing my free will" and reminded me that I chose this before my birth and warned me that everything I was doing, I was doing without them and that they were getting "annoyed". I couldn't explain why but man did that hit home for me... I was distraught ... I had pictured them assisting me in everything I had managed to create and attract. I mean I was ripping it up and down L.A. on my bike cheating death on a daily basis. I was completely convinced it was because of their protection over me(not that I was driving like an asshole, but I was extremely confident in my skills and never doubted my intuition because to me it was them, my guides). And after the emergency session hearing I had no support from them, the idea of me doing that on my own and having them be less than happy with my actions was something I couldn't ignore. My ego fell to the ground as I started waking up from this sleep like state and felt ashamed of how I was living my life and the people who had been holding space for me.
Exterior approval began to mean what it really actually means, NOTHING and my soul crying out at it's last attempt I felt him/me.
"FUCK" I sighed as I realized what I was going to have to do... essentially leaving all this behind; the lights, the glitter, the fake gold. I was no longer able to be fooled by the show. Fortunately enough to have the support system that I did, of all the people around me. Who at one point I thought were there because of what I could do for them and not out of an unconditional love and belief in me and what I stood for. I threw my hands up and spoke out to my guides and angels .... "I allow you to interfere with my free will in order to have myself follow my soul's purpose. I choose to do what must be done so that I can be a part of my soul's mission and find true happiness and self fulfillment".
Believe me you.... like magic EVERYTHING and I mean EVERYTHING perfectly lined up to have me packed and on a plane to Canada. Even all the people involved with me and my company in LA were relocated and set up to be living their life without my move affecting them in any negative way. A true BLESSING because my whole life, anyone who knows me previously knows I've always gone WAY out of my way for anyone I cared about to make sure they were good and had everything they needed if I could and even at times when I couldn't or shouldn't have helped, I did. I remember my biggest worry when I realized I was going to have to leave was my friends and how they would be affected. Amazing how blessed I feel to know they still back me and show me love even when they didn't understand and probably thought I was delusional haha.
Now life is perfect .... just like my guides told me it would be. I live with my soul's counterpart Stacey, growing every day more connected to my true self, remembering my gifts/powers I never knew I had, and skating with more confidence than ever in my life. Affirming everyday with constant reassurance from our mission guides as they tell us, "the best is yet to come!"
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